Oh, the darling buds of May are upon us, but so are the showers for April flowers.
Another thing that has descended upon my inner weather is a cloud of gloom, ennui and uncertainty as to my professional direction. Some of you may have noticed I’ve slowed down in my efforts of blogging, SnapChatting and Instagraming — all things I used to take to with much gusto. The reasons are multi-fold:
1. I’m a bit bored of it all.
2. I’m really busy in my real-life and with my in-person clients
3. for the first time in my life I’m craving a bit of privacy.
4. My phone is a piece of shit that is constantly crashing.
I still love what I do but I guess I feel the need to streamline and simplify my efforts. And I want to be more present for the people physically around me. I’m 34 now. I’m really starting to give less fucks.
Speaking of giving less fucks (I don’t mean to be vulgar but this phrase really captures my sentiments) I had a heated confrontation with someone in my condo gym a couple days ago. If you know me, you know I’m really very nice, always smiling, a people pleaser, and a confrontation avoider — In other words, a real pushover. Most of my life I’ve been incredibly passive. I won’t go into details about the incident (in a nutshell this grumpy guy who is always scowling accused me of invading his private space) but for the first time in my life I stood up for myself and really gave it to him! I told him exactly what I thought of him (a constant negative energy, I said!), and vigorously highlighted how wrong he was. Even he was shocked. The event left my heart-rate elevated but I was strangely proud about how I was finally able to stand up for myself. Edith of a mere 6 months ago would have backed out of that incident quick fast with “I’m so sorry!” — even if I wasn’t. Fuck, it’s sooooo refreshing!
I am, admittedly, lacking direction and motivation. But despite that, I am rather happy in my personal and emotional life.
I’ve been dating my main squeeze for a year now this month. His name is Greg and he looks like a viking. It’s been quite easy and wonderful. I like him, I really, really like him.
Now, please allow me to talk about my fitness life. I had to give the Olympic lifting I was so engaged with for a while a rest as I just got too busy and couldn’t see my coach enough. I’m currently trying to drop a couple pounds and lean out, so I’m upping the cardio, metabolic workouts and being better my at my diet. I *may* be back on BodyRock.tv, hosting a workout series. I do miss it. Here’s a compiled playlist of some of my real-time workouts for BodyRock.tv
Cyberly, I’m in the process of making a new landing page/ website for BootyFull. It’s product I’m extremely proud of and it deserves a better home
Professionally, I’m busier than ever at the gym and with online clients, so that’s great. See here for more deets.
Finally, I can’t tell you how excited I am to be on a tropical beach by mid-june! I’ll be heading to the Philippines for my cousin’s wedding with Greg in tow. After the wedding in Manila, we will be heading south to some of the world’s most beautiful beaches.
Speaking of Greg, he’s great. He’s stepped up his photography game of late and has been taking most of my pics. We also have plans to make more informative workout videos. And, I’m sure we’ll be snapping some jaw-droppers in the Philippines.
Ok, guys, I think that’s enough. If I may leave you with some final words, that I hope you won’t find pedantic. Be nice, open, accepting, tolerant and exude good vibes. The atmosphere of intolerance that’s currently gripping the world is breaking my heart.